10 and 14 for Doc and Author

palpalbuddypal:

“You left me alone.”
“I can’t help but blame you for this.”

I’m sorry it took so long! School and other projects have been keeping me busy!

Edward couldn’t sleep. There he lay, warm and safe in Author’s arms, but he couldn’t even will himself to close his eyes. He stared at the wall, listening as Author quietly murmured in his sleep. The words never seemed to stop for him. He was always writing, always speaking, even in his dreams. And Edward laid there, awake, wishing there was silence.

The day had been a long, tough one, and rest usually came easy those days, so why couldn’t he sleep? Shutting his eyes led to nothing. He wanted to shift about, but Author’s arms kept him securely there.

“I can’t help but blame you for this,” he whispered at Author, “Maybe your arms are too warm, and that’s why I can’t sleep.”

Author continued murmuring, oblivious to the world around him. Edward sighed, wishing it was just a yawn, and that he could go to sleep. The day had been long, and he wanted nothing but to rest, to fall asleep in his lover’s arms that were squeezing almost uncomfortably tight around him.

“What is it with you?” He couldn’t help but whisper at him, “You left me alone all day, but now, you won’t let me go? You left me alone.”

The dreamy murmuring continued, unaffected by Edward’s silent questions. He almost wished Author was awake, so maybe he could get an explanation to why he was left alone until the sun set and he went to bed. Why he wouldn’t listen, constantly obsessed with whatever story he had been writing. Why he would ignore him, but always sleep with him. He turned at an uncomfortable angle, looking at Authors sleeping face, murmuring lips.

Did he love him too much?

The thought shocked him out of whatever fatigue he had. Of course he loves Author, they wouldn’t be dating if he didn’t. He got him roses, bandages, kissed him, loved him in ways he had never loved anyone else before-

But is that too much? Author was a good man, a loving man, and Edward knew he loved him more than anything, just like how he loved him. More than anything. Sacrificing anything, doing anything, for him. Would Author do the same, though?

Edward turned his glance away from Author’s sleeping form. There was no way he was going to sleep now with the violent maelstrom of thoughts in his mind, buzzing like wasps. Author was holding him. A part of Edward wanted to relax into it, another part wanted to leave him like all the times Author had left him to wake up alone.

He split the difference, laying completely still and staring at the wall until the sun came up. His eyes were closed, thoughts focused only on the sharp question that had been poking at him all night. Finally, finally Author moved, unwinding his arms from Edward, swinging his legs over the side of the bed and standing up. His heart sunk through the floor, when all of a sudden, there was the feeling of soft lips on his cheek.

“I’ll see you later, dear prince.”

He heard Author move about the room, gathering his things, the metal of his bat, the paper of his journal, all tucked away. The door open, then shut. Slowly, Edward brought a hand to his cheek and sprawled out on the empty bed. Now, sleep came easy to him. His question was answered.

As a last resort

As a last resort, he plunged the spoon into his eye, screaming in pain. He couldn’t kill himself with this, but he needed his sight gone, he needed these monsters gone that he saw, wherever he was, wherever he looked. He was surrounded by them, chased, and he feared he would be swallowed whole.

Whimpering from pain, tears gathered in his eyes, he shoved the spoon around his eyeball, gasping and choking on his breath. The pain was excruciating, and his vision was already flickering. Blurry from tears, and blood was streaming down the right side of his face.

With a cry of pain, he wiggled the spoon as far back as possible, and pushed the spoon down, screaming as he pushed his eyeball out of his skull, gasping and choking on sobs as blood and tears streamed down his face, dripping from his face. He had to do this, he had to do this.

The spoon clattered to the ground, getting covered in blood. His hands were shaking badly, as his hands searched for the scissors he had laid down. Finding them, he whimpered, raising them and setting them on the nerve. He weakly began cutting, gasping and sobbing as he worked on cutting it through. 

Finally, finally he was able to cut his eye off, and it dropped to the ground. He set the scissors down, fingers getting bloody as he grabbed the spoon again.
One more to go. One more, and he’d be free.

He took shaking breaths, and he almost decided against this. He almost threw the spoon away from him.
But he didn’t.
He shoved the spoon into his socket, into the side of his eye, and cried out in pain. Like before, he pushed and pulled the spoon, sobbing from the pain, as more and more blood poured over his face, sticky and warm.
He shoveled the eye out of its socket with a scream, and he nearly collapsed.

Finally.

Finally there was darkness.

No more monsters, no more terrifying visions of shadows and creatures he didn’t know were real or not.
Finally he was safe.

Author hummed as he read over the last sentence he had written. It was good, and he liked it. He thought about putting more spacing in it, for a bigger impact, but he felt that only having the last bits like it were the most important. Though maybe he’d re-write it later, make it better. More painful.

He stood up, stretching. He could barely keep himself awake, though his nightmares had been getting worse. As did his headache. Pretty much everything had gotten worse, making writing a lot harder. But he had had a surge of inspiration, and had managed to write something pretty good. At least, not terrible.

He left the study to walk to his bedroom, deciding sleeping for once would be good. It was already dark out after all, as he walked through the dark halls.

His eyes snapped to movement. He looked for a moment, but then shook his head. Just his imagination, or maybe something flew past a window.
Or something.

He continued to his bedroom, stripping of his shirt and his jeans, grabbing some shirt and pulling it on, he let himself fall into bed, sighing in content. Pulling the blankets over himself, he fell asleep after a good while, though his sleep wasn’t easy.

He was troubled by nightmares, shadow monsters chasing him through the forest, hands grabbing at him and pulling, falling endlessly, being eaten alive.
He woke up with a gasp, cold sweat covering him and making his shirt stick to him. He groaned, laying an arm over his eyes.

Creaking.
Why did he hear creaking? He knew the floorboards in his cabin tended to creak sometimes. He knew the whole damn cabin tended to creak sometimes, whenever there was strong winds, or storms. But it was quiet outside. There was no rain, no wind.
But there was creaking, and it sounded like it was getting closer to his room.

And then it fell silent. Author must have imagined it, from being so tired. Or because of his nightmares. Surely.
But then, there was scratching on his door.

Not like from a cat. A cat’s scratching was quick and short, low on the door.
No, this was different.
The scratching was slow, and long, A claw dug into the wood of his door, dragging it down slowly, along the entire length.

Again.
And again.
And again.
Until it stopped.

The door handle rattled. Author’s eyes were fixed on the door, trying to see something in the darkness he couldn’t make out. Just waiting for the handle to be pushed down, for the door to open.

His head snapped to the window when there was a dull thump against it, and he could see something moving. It was weird, it didn’t look like an animal, it didn’t look like a human. It looked like some sort of abomination, and it was righting itself, it was getting taller, casting a dark shadow into the room thanks to the moonlight.

And then he heard breathing. Heavy, dragging breaths. Right beneath his bed.
Author’s heart was beating rapidly, thundering against his chest, and he tried to quiet his quickened breathing. He was scared, he couldn’t deny it. Something was happening, and he was sure he was awake.
He could move, he didn’t suffer from sleep paralysis. But he never had hallucinated anything before either, and he shouldn’t be from lack of sleep either.

He cried out when he was suddenly grabbed, ice cold hands holding his arms, his legs, pulling him in every direction, and he struggled. He struggled, pulling against the hands holding him, grunting and gasping.
He was terrified.

They let go as Author heard a door slam shut. There shouldn’t be a door slamming shut. He didn’t know what was happening, everything was happening at once and then vanishing.

And it didn’t stop.

Even once the sun finally rose, Author still heard them. He still heard things, breathing just behind him, scratching on doors. He saw the shadows move, and obscure figures twist outside the windows.

He didn’t know what to do. Sometimes, when he didn’t move for too long, he could feel those hands again. Feel them pulling at him, tugging on him. And he always saved himself, somehow, managed to break free from their grasps. 

He needed to save himself from this, he needed to find a way to stop them. But nothing he did helped. It all just got so much worse.

There were voices. Voices he didn’t know, voices that were familiar. They all sounded vaguely like his own, but also not. He heard them talking about things he didn’t know, things he didn’t understand
They started to overlap. 
Author didn’t know what was real and what not anymore, it was too much. Especially once he saw himself.

Images of himself, around the whole cabin. They started out standing still, frozen in time. But then they started moving. Doing things. Things he remembered doing, and things he hadn’t done. 

It scared him more than the monsters he could see, the monsters haunting his every step.

He didn’t know how to stop all of this, it all was so much. All these voices, all these visions. He needed them to stop, he couldn’t bear seeing them any longer. He was constantly in fear, paranoid in his own home. He didn’t leave the cabin anymore.

He broke one night. He couldn’t bear it anymore, another nightmare after barely managing to fall asleep.
Stumbling into the kitchen, rummaging through the drawers, breathing harsh and frantic. Too many sounds, too many visions, too many monsters.

Spoon and scissors in hand, he dropped to his knees. His hand balled in a fist around the spoon, the scissors on the ground in front of him somewhere.

As a last resort, he plunged the spoon into his eyesocket, screaming in pain. He couldn’t die just yet, his work wasn’t done. But he needed his sight gone, he needed these monsters gone, these visions. Wherever he was, wherever he looked, they were there. He couldn’t take it anymore.

44 Dark/Author?

lostcybertronian:

Title: Stay the Night

“You’re pissing me off.”

“Why?” The Author flashed him a grin, his teeth white against the dark. “Because I am who I am because of you? Because-” he leaned closer, batting his eyelashes- “I adore your laugh?”

Dark’s hands tightened on the steering wheel, eyes glinting under the passing lights of the streetlamps. “Next time, I pick the movie.”

“Aww,” the Author reached across the center console to stroke Dark’s cheek with his thumb, “your smile is gorgeous. Please, keep doing it.”

“I’m going to kill you.” As he spoke, the road took a desolate turn; the streetlamps and urban setting faded away, leaving only the headlights to illuminate the cracked, pot-hole filled road in front of them. The only thing that could be seen for miles ahead was black, dense woods.

“But I love you,” the Author declared, “you can’t kill me.”

Dark snorted, then, without further comment, flicked the blinker on and pulled over to the side of the road. “This is your stop. Get out.”

The Author groaned. Then a mischievous smile spread across his face and he leaned across the console to whisper in Dark’s ear, “but … can’t I just stay the night?”

That earned a scowl. “No.”

The Author brought his hand up to cup Dark’s face, tilting it so the entity was forced to meet his gaze. “I’m very lonely, you know. Can’t you come keep me company?” He batted his eyelashes again, hoping that he sounded sufficiently lovelorn and I-am-all-alone-in-this-world. “Just for a little bit?”

The scowl deepened. “No.”

“Perhaps this will change your mind.” The Author kissed him, slow at first, then harder as Dark reciprocated in kind.

Dark was the first to break away. He gave a frustrated sigh before cutting the engine. “Fine. You win.”

The Author grinned, kissed him again. “I knew I would.”

7 or 8 Ghost?

lostcybertronian:

I really really reallyreallyreally wanted to try some Google/Author (Ghosthor?) SO HERE YOU ARE

Title: The Cat

“This can’t be the zombie apocalypse can it? I’m not caught up on my favorite shows.”

Google regarded the Author with disdain. “Do you ever shut up?”

“I like my characters to know I’m coming,” the Author informed him, his flashlight beam sweeping over crates, over abandoned cow stalls, over mysterious objects- Google estimated them to be old, rusty farm equipment- covered in dusty tarps. “Besides, it’s too fucking quiet in here.”

“That doesn’t mean you need to fill it with your-” Google started, but suddenly the Author whirled on him, holding a finger to his lips.

“Shh!” He said, then motioned with his flashlight to a pile of overturned crates, out from behind which poked a suspicious-looking shadow.

Google nodded, and they split up, the Author creeping around to the right of the crates, Google to the left.

He could hear something shuffling, something that sounded distinctly non-human, but he didn’t have time to point this out to the Author because the Author was already springing into action with a shout of “Aha! Caught you-”

His triumphant exclamation quickly morphed into a high-pitched scream as the Author came barrelling back out from behind the crates, stumbling blindly into Google and sending them both down in a pile of limbs and dust and dirt.

“Author!” Google spluttered, just as a cat ran by his head. He struggled to get up, but the Author was on top of him, pinning him down. “What is the meaning of this?”

“I thought- I thought it was-” The Author stammered, “a monster!”

Google fixed him with a glare. “Try a cat.”

“Ah- I knew that from the beginning. I was just trying to scare you.” the Author began to backpedal, to try and talk himself out of his corner but it was too late; he had thoroughly humiliated himself.

Google smirked, satisfied, even though they hadn’t caught up with their quarry, But in his smugness he failed to notice that the Author had stopped talking and was now staring down at him with an odd expression on his face.

Google returned his gaze, puzzled. “What-”

Then the Author kissed him, slow and gentle and everything he normally wasn’t and Google was sure his systems had malfunctioned because it actually felt good to be kissing the Author and then-

The Author pulled away, rolled himself off Google and got up. He brushed himself off before extending a hand.

Google took it, and when he was on his feet once more he leaned in again.

This time, it was longer before they broke apart, the Author breathless and Google’s core whirring a little too loud for comfort.

“Dark doesn’t have to know about this,” Google said after a long moment.

The Author ran a hand through his hair, making it spike up with dirt and sweat. Then he nodded and grinned. “Deal.”

46 44

lostcybertronian:

Docthor, anyone?

Title: Oglers

They didn’t go out much, but when they did, both men and women alike stopped to stare at the Author.

Edward could see why: his boyfriend was pretty hot. Toned muscle hardened by days in the woods, plus a jawline that could cut glass.

Couple those qualities with a charming smile, and who could resist?

Despite this, Edward’s insides twisted whenever the Author would smile or wink at them in return.

Sure, he wasn’t one hundred percent muscle. Studying for exams and working clinical rotations didn’t exactly make rock hard abs.

Still, the Author was his boyfriend.

When they got to the car- having left the oglers behind, thank god- Edward slipped into the driver’s seat and the Author into the passenger’s.

For a moment there was silence, then Edward pulled the Author in by the collar of his shirt and kissed him hard.

It startled a laugh out of the Author, but he otherwise didn’t protest, choosing instead to cup his face and pull him closer.

It was a good thirty seconds before they broke away, both breathless and gasping.

“What was that for? Not that I minded.” The Author asked, shooting him a crooked smile.

Edward only smirked and started the car.