dxrkmirxge:

emptynarration:

Markus couldn’t calm down even if he tried. So he sobbed into Daniel’s chest, for a few minutes, until he managed to calm down again. He sat pretty much limb in Daniel’s lap, sniffing again and again as his nose was running. He felt like dying all over again.

„Don’t cry darling everything will be fine eventually. Maybe but soon, but eventually. I’ll help you trough everything“ he whispered.

Markus just stayed quiet in return. He felt drained, very drained in every aspect, and he knew this was the worst possible state to be in, since he just didn’t care about anything anymore, as he was too emotionally drained to do so. Past abusers had taken advantage of how drained Markus could get quite a bit.

Markus couldn’t calm down even if he tried. So he sobbed into Daniel’s chest, for a few minutes, until he managed to calm down again. He sat pretty much limb in Daniel’s lap, sniffing again and again as his nose was running. He felt like dying all over again.

dxrkmirxge:

emptynarration:

“I.. I don’t know..”, Markus mumbled quietly, voice strained. He was trying his hardest not to cry, though he was failing with that.

He would be alright calling Daniel whenever he felt like he needed to, but he didn’t think he could handle having him here a lot for now.

„That’s Fine, I just wanted you to be safe. But if you don’t want me here, then that’s fine as well“ he said softly and looked at him. Of course it hurt to find out that Markus didn’t want him to visit, but he couldn’t change that.

“I’m sorry-”, he almost choked on his words, shaking in Daniel’s arms as his tears got soaked into Daniel’s shirt.

“I’m sorry- please-”, he sobbed, not willing to move away from Daniel’s chest and let him see him.

“I.. I don’t know..”, Markus mumbled quietly, voice strained. He was trying his hardest not to cry, though he was failing with that.

He would be alright calling Daniel whenever he felt like he needed to, but he didn’t think he could handle having him here a lot for now.

dxrkmirxge:

emptynarration:

Markus clung tightly to Daniel, hiding his face against his chest. Would he really? He couldn’t believe it, even though he wanted to. Daniel was so nice to him, he just really… he couldn’t think of why Daniel would never disliked him for all the things he’s been abused for before.

„I could never lay a single finger on you, my dear. You’re way too precious to get hurt“ he whispered softly into Markus hair and placed another gentle kiss to his forehead then.

Markus was trembling. Eyes squeezed shut with tears gathered in them, pressing his face hard against Daniel’s chest. He wasn’t going to be hurt by him, and he so badly wanted to trust Daniel it almost hurt. He hoped more than anything Daniel would really never hurt him.

Markus clung tightly to Daniel, hiding his face against his chest. Would he really? He couldn’t believe it, even though he wanted to. Daniel was so nice to him, he just really… he couldn’t think of why Daniel would never disliked him for all the things he’s been abused for before.

dxrkmirxge:

emptynarration:

emptynarration:

Markus tensed at first, listening to Daniel. He barely relaxed by the time he was done, nodding lightly.
“Okay… I’ll… I’ll take a break when there’s a better opportunity for it.”, he mumbled. Just a few more pages, then there was a good spot to take a break at.

“’m sorry for all the flowers..”, Markus mumbled then. He could feel them even through the blankets, covering Daniel’s arms, especially his wrists. Compared to him, the flowers he had gotten from Daniel’s message were nothing.

“’m sorry… if I can’t stop..”, he near whispered, holding tightly onto Daniel.

“Don’t be sorry. It’s mental illness.” He whispered softly and rubbed his sides softly. „I’m not mad at You st all“

“You don’t hate me?..”, Markus asked quietly, barely audible. He was terrible afraid Daniel would hate him at some point. That he really would dislike him because of some thing.

emptynarration:

Markus tensed at first, listening to Daniel. He barely relaxed by the time he was done, nodding lightly.
“Okay… I’ll… I’ll take a break when there’s a better opportunity for it.”, he mumbled. Just a few more pages, then there was a good spot to take a break at.

“’m sorry for all the flowers..”, Markus mumbled then. He could feel them even through the blankets, covering Daniel’s arms, especially his wrists. Compared to him, the flowers he had gotten from Daniel’s message were nothing.

“’m sorry… if I can’t stop..”, he near whispered, holding tightly onto Daniel.

dxrkmirxge:

emptynarration:

emptynarration:

Markus tensed at first, listening to Daniel. He barely relaxed by the time he was done, nodding lightly.
“Okay… I’ll… I’ll take a break when there’s a better opportunity for it.”, he mumbled. Just a few more pages, then there was a good spot to take a break at.

Markus just nodded lightly. Five was pretty late to start in a bakery. He wondered if Daniel was one of them that made cakes and such, and not bread and alike. He was pretty sure they started at three or four.

Markus shifted again, setting his book down and wrapping his arms and legs around Daniel again, nuzzling his face into his neck. Chest to chest was much better, and much warmer.

Daniel hummed softly and held him close, wrapping his arms around Markus back softly. “Or I could make you a cake. If you like cakes” he mumbled softly.

Markus just hummed in return. His throat hurt, speaking hurt, and he was tired. He was always tired. Even though he had slept a few hours ago, he was tired again.

“I don’t work…. Cus ’m blind…”, he mumbled quietly. He felt like he needed to tell Daniel whatever might make him dislike him. He didn’t feel deserving of anything good.