“I- n- no- I- d-don`t- no key-”, Markus cowered in the corner of his room, unable to really have gotten anywhere else. He was afraid, and he could hear the other man outside, coming, and he was rightfully scared for his life.

“D-Daniel- I- I’m sorry- I should’ve called m-more- sooner- I- I’m sorry- I- I wish we could’ve- I- that I’d- not pushed you away- sorry- I- ple-ase-”, he was sobbing terribly, afraid he was going to die, that he wouldn’t get to befriend his soulmate at least.

He flinched when he heard the door open. “K-kevin- Kevin plea-se-”, he whimpered, clutching his phone in his hands, crying out when he was grabbed and pulled up to his feet. Kevin’s words unable to be picked up form the phone, unlike Markus’ afraid whimpering.

Large hands wrapping around his throat again, making the bruises hurt even more again, and Markus dropped his phone for instead vain attempts of pulling the stronger hands off of him, wheezing for breath he couldn’t get.

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“N-no-”, Markus was sobbing, and audibly gasping for breath. “He- he t-tried- he tried to kill m-me- p-please- pl-ease-”, his voice was breaking up between sobs. Breathing hurt, his voice hurt, and he felt light headed still. Deep ugly bruises covered his neck, blue flowers meaning the injury gotten was inflicted from another person, and the dark colour the severity of the injury.

“‘m home p-please- he’ll co-me back- please-”, he was terrified, he didn’t want to be killed.

“I’m right there darling. Please lock yourself in your room okay?! Stay on the phone.” He said and grabbed his keys before he rushed to his car and started driving to Markus place. No matter what had happened between them, he still cared deeply for the other.

“I c-an’t-”, Markus could barely breathe through his panicked gasps and painful throat. He knew Daniel was coming, he knew he was going to be saved, he knew Daniel still didn’t want him dead. It helped keeping him a little calm at the very least.

“I- I can hear h-im- plea-se- D-Dani-el-”, he knew Daniel must be here soon. He was still afraid though.

“N-no-”, Markus was sobbing, and audibly gasping for breath. “He- he t-tried- he tried to kill m-me- p-please- pl-ease-”, his voice was breaking up between sobs. Breathing hurt, his voice hurt, and he felt light headed still. Deep ugly bruises covered his neck, blue flowers meaning the injury gotten was inflicted from another person, and the dark colour the severity of the injury.

“‘m home p-please- he’ll co-me back- please-”, he was terrified, he didn’t want to be killed.

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For quite some time, there were barely any new flowers for Daniel to discover. And most of them weren’t self-inflicted, according to the flower’s colours.

But eventually Markus went back to his home, because Arthur had to go travel to some other country, and he would rather not travel away from home. And instead of staying at the cabin, he went home.

A lot of the time he still debated about talking with Daniel, because he was really lonely, but never did. He was convinced Daniel disliked him. So he tried to find other people to be less lonely, and desperately clung to the first person who was nice to him and showed interest in him. Vaguely. 

He always hoped for a boyfriend to love him and be there for him. He always got stuck with abusive and manipulative assholes though. This time was no difference.

It calmed Daniel a little bit when he didn’t saw a lot of flowers on his skin, that meant Markus was getting better.

But he frowned when the flowers came back from time to time. But it wasn’t his business anymore right? Markus didn’t want his help, so he would call him.

It got worse. Way worse. His depression picked back up again right where he left it, and he felt all his progress falling away as all his worries and anxieties were thrown in his face by his “boyfriend”. He got yelled at, he got hit, he got hurt. Being covered in bruises became normal to him.

It was one late evening when a lot of dark blue, almost black flowers grew around Daniel’s neck. Not long after, his phone rang, with Markus calling.

For quite some time, there were barely any new flowers for Daniel to discover. And most of them weren’t self-inflicted, according to the flower’s colours.

But eventually Markus went back to his home, because Arthur had to go travel to some other country, and he would rather not travel away from home. And instead of staying at the cabin, he went home.

A lot of the time he still debated about talking with Daniel, because he was really lonely, but never did. He was convinced Daniel disliked him. So he tried to find other people to be less lonely, and desperately clung to the first person who was nice to him and showed interest in him. Vaguely. 

He always hoped for a boyfriend to love him and be there for him. He always got stuck with abusive and manipulative assholes though. This time was no difference.

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Arthur groaned. “Your soulmate is a fucking idiot.”, he said, laying the phone down. “He’s not even listening to me. Maybe he just can’t understand too much info at once.”, he hummed, wrapping an arm around Markus and running his other hand through his hair.

“You just shouldn’t be so mean..”, Markus mumbled.
“I’m just saying what’s true. You tried to die because he carved his number into his arm. He didn’t save you by doing that, he caused it. I know you hurt yourself before he did, but not worse than usual..”, Arthur nuzzled his face into Markus’ hair.

“He just doesn’t understand me. Sorry darling.”, he  murmured softly.
“It’s… I don’t know… fine maybe..”, Markus mumbled quietly. Maybe he should just go live with Arthur again. He’d be safe, he’d be taken care of, and no one needed to worry about him besides Arthur. He was very sure Daniel wouldn’t want to see him again.

Daniel indeed didn’t call anymore, since he had the feeling that he wasn’t needed and was only the one to blame for everything that went wrong by Arthur. He would maybe give Markus a second chance, but not his brother.

Arthur stayed with Markus for a week, before Markus decided to go back with Arthur. He wished to not exist, and living with Arthur was the closest he got to that without dying. And besides Arthur, no one cared about Markus anyways.

With a few things packed, Markus went with Arthur. A whole different town, needing pretty much the entire day to get to. Living in a cabin in a forest. Markus gave up on Daniel, believing he wouldn’t care about his existence either.

Arthur groaned. “Your soulmate is a fucking idiot.”, he said, laying the phone down. “He’s not even listening to me. Maybe he just can’t understand too much info at once.”, he hummed, wrapping an arm around Markus and running his other hand through his hair.

“You just shouldn’t be so mean..”, Markus mumbled.
“I’m just saying what’s true. You tried to die because he carved his number into his arm. He didn’t save you by doing that, he caused it. I know you hurt yourself before he did, but not worse than usual..”, Arthur nuzzled his face into Markus’ hair.

“He just doesn’t understand me. Sorry darling.”, he  murmured softly.
“It’s… I don’t know… fine maybe..”, Markus mumbled quietly. Maybe he should just go live with Arthur again. He’d be safe, he’d be taken care of, and no one needed to worry about him besides Arthur. He was very sure Daniel wouldn’t want to see him again.

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“He wouldn’t have tried to kill himself if you hadn’t hurt yourself.”, Arthur countered, frowning. “I’m very grateful you saved him, truly. I would be very upset if he died. But you can’t tell me to try a little harder, when I’ve taken care of him all his life, and saved said life multiple times before you even heard his voice for the first time. I’m brutally honest, and you have to get used to that if you want to be with my brother. I know you’re soulmates, but that doesn’t mean you’re going to be a good boyfriend for him.”.

“Arthur stop being mean to Daniel!”, Markus whined, uncaring if Daniel managed to hear him. “I know him a lot better than you. And if he’s not comfortable seeing you again this soon, after trying to kill himself yesterday and having multiple breakdowns, all because of you if you so want to argue, then you have to give him space.”.

“All because of me?!! I fucking hurt myself because he tried to kill himself and I just wanted to try and give him my number, you idiot!” He suddenly yelled at him. He had never been so angry in his life before.

Arthur rolled his eyes, staying calm. Markus was whimpering against him, having just heard Daniel yell, but not what he was saying.

“As far as I heard, Markus had hurt himself again, prompting you to cut your number into your arm. And thus, Markus felt terrible for making you do that, and tried to kill himself.”. Markus really wasn’t happy listening to it, but he had no other choice. He was pretty sure Daniel wouldn’t want to see him ever again.

“That’s not even the point here. It’s about you learning what Markus needs if you want to be with him. And if he needs space, even if it hurts you, give him space and don’t let him know you’re a little unhappy about it. I’d rather not have Markus have another breakdown again today after what apparently happened yesterday.”.

“He wouldn’t have tried to kill himself if you hadn’t hurt yourself.”, Arthur countered, frowning. “I’m very grateful you saved him, truly. I would be very upset if he died. But you can’t tell me to try a little harder, when I’ve taken care of him all his life, and saved said life multiple times before you even heard his voice for the first time. I’m brutally honest, and you have to get used to that if you want to be with my brother. I know you’re soulmates, but that doesn’t mean you’re going to be a good boyfriend for him.”.

“Arthur stop being mean to Daniel!”, Markus whined, uncaring if Daniel managed to hear him. “I know him a lot better than you. And if he’s not comfortable seeing you again this soon, after trying to kill himself yesterday and having multiple breakdowns, all because of you if you so want to argue, then you have to give him space.”.

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“Okay..”, Markus mumbled, nodding lightly. He took a few deep breaths.
“I’m really sorry for Arthur. He’s an ass. He’s just- just trying to protect me…”, Markus fidgeted with Arthur’s shirt, not having changed position.

“He wants to apologize to you, is- is that okay? Can I give him to you?”.

Daniel sighed and bit his lip as he held onto his blanket. „Yeah sure.“ he mumbled and sighed, he wanted to give them another chance.

“I’m sorry. Thank you.”, Markus looked up to Arthur, and held the phone out to him. Arthur took the phone, humming lightly.

“Hey Daniel.”, he greeted. “Sorry for being so harsh to you. I didn’t mean to.”.