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“You’ll get sick of me.. everyone does..”, Markus mumbled, sniffing. He didn’t like it, he didn’t like himself, and he really believed no one would ever really stay with him and love him. If only because they got annoyed by his depression.

„Do you really think so? Do you really think i Would’ve come back to you if I was annoyed of you?” He asked then.

“Some day you won’t. You’ll get sick of me, and my problems, and my crying, and my apologizing, and my everything, and you’ll wish there’d be no new flowers on you again, and-”, Markus was so used to people leaving his life, blaming him for everything, hating him for things out of his control.

“You’ll get sick of me.. everyone does..”, Markus mumbled, sniffing. He didn’t like it, he didn’t like himself, and he really believed no one would ever really stay with him and love him. If only because they got annoyed by his depression.

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Markus calmed down after a while, just shaking and whimpering against Daniel. He would feel… better? maybe? if Daniel only just ignored his existence. 
“I’m sorry- I’m sorry I’m apologizing so much- sorry-”, he was stumbling over his words again, but he couldn’t care less.

“I just- I-… I’m just such a problem and no good and you deserve someone good and not me because I’m terrible and you’re so kind and sweet an all I am is a huge disappointment and all I do is worry you and- and..”, he was rambling, voice quiet and words quick. 

„hey… hey Listen“ he whispered and looked at him before he cupped his cheeks. I don’t care if you are blind. I don’t care if you have mental health problems. But I care about you. I wanna help you and make you feel good.“ Daniel daid and then kissed him softly.

Markus looked at Daniel with teary eyes, trying to take deep breaths, though they were shaky and stuttering. 
“But-”. he tried to start, before he was kissed. He relaxed a little bit at that, holding onto Daniel’s chest again.

“But I’m such a burden with my problems…”, he mumbled quietly when they parted again.

Markus calmed down after a while, just shaking and whimpering against Daniel. He would feel… better? maybe? if Daniel only just ignored his existence. 
“I’m sorry- I’m sorry I’m apologizing so much- sorry-”, he was stumbling over his words again, but he couldn’t care less.

“I just- I-… I’m just such a problem and no good and you deserve someone good and not me because I’m terrible and you’re so kind and sweet an all I am is a huge disappointment and all I do is worry you and- and..”, he was rambling, voice quiet and words quick. 

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Markus whimpered when Daniel raised his voice a little, cowering into the corner where his bed stood.
“No- no please- please I’m sorry- I- I-”, h broke off, sobbing. He was a mess, he knew he was, and he just.. he couldn’t help himself. He knew he was a terrible being to try and take care of.

He dropped his phone onto the bed, to instead sob into his hands, repeating “I’m sorry” again and again while also gasping for breath between sobs and words.

Daniel quickly made his way to his car again and drove over to him, not ending the call though. Once he arrived, he quickly rushed inside and upstairs, pulled him close. “I’m here. I’m here darling. It’s okay…” he whispered.

Markus could hear Daniel coming, but he didn’t care a lot. He just sobbed more when he was pulled into his arms again, loud and hurting. He hated himself so incredibly much, and mostly just because of the people that had abused him. And by now, he would only blame himself for all he had gone through.

Markus whimpered when Daniel raised his voice a little, cowering into the corner where his bed stood.
“No- no please- please I’m sorry- I- I-”, h broke off, sobbing. He was a mess, he knew he was, and he just.. he couldn’t help himself. He knew he was a terrible being to try and take care of.

He dropped his phone onto the bed, to instead sob into his hands, repeating “I’m sorry” again and again while also gasping for breath between sobs and words.

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Markus was startled when he heard his phone ring somewhere in the blankets.
“Nonononono don’t hate me don’t hate me don’t hate me-”, he was searching for his phone, whimpering as he begged to no one to not be hated. He should be, he deserved to be, but he really really didn’t want to be.

When he finally found his phone, he answered, uncaring who it was, just assuming it was Daniel -not many had his number, and only his brother would call besides Daniel.
“I’m fine I’m sorry- no- I- ah- hhhh-”, he whimpered, gasping for breaths as his eyes burned with the want to cry again.

„Markus did you… what happened?“ Daniel Asked, his voice sounded so full of worry, not angry or hateful at all.

“I just- I couldn’t- I- hhhn..”, Markus couldn’t get any thoughts sorted, yet alone out. He hated himself and thought he deserved pain. He couldn’t tell Daniel that!
“Please just hate me-”, his voice was strained as he tried to hold back sobs, though it was obvious how upset he was. If Daniel just hated him he’d be better off. Daniel could get annoyed at his flowers and ignore them, and maybe one day they’d stop and he could be happy somewhere with someone. And not ave to deal with Markus.

Markus was startled when he heard his phone ring somewhere in the blankets.
“Nonononono don’t hate me don’t hate me don’t hate me-”, he was searching for his phone, whimpering as he begged to no one to not be hated. He should be, he deserved to be, but he really really didn’t want to be.

When he finally found his phone, he answered, uncaring who it was, just assuming it was Daniel -not many had his number, and only his brother would call besides Daniel.
“I’m fine I’m sorry- no- I- ah- hhhh-”, he whimpered, gasping for breaths as his eyes burned with the want to cry again.